Tim's Leukemia Update Page

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Saturday, December 9 - No news is good news.  I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still doing fine.  I am looking forward to returning to work full-time next month.  My next doctor's appointment is January 15th and I should have another biopsy about a month after that.  I'll keep you posted.  Thanks again for your prayers.

Thursday, November 30 - NEGATIVE!!!  I received a call from the nurse today and the biopsy results were negative again.  Praise God!  After getting off the phone I had a huge adrenaline rush - probably for the first time in over five months.  I am so thankful for all of your prayers and support.  I cannot stress how thankful I am for that and for God's loving care during this time. 

I will be having another bone marrow biopsy in three months so there may not be much to talk about until then.  Lord willing, I will be able to put some more articles and book reviews on the website.  I have been pretty busy trying to finish up some classes and going through my curriculum for next semester. 

Be sure to check out the events page since I will be speaking at a large conference in Green Bay in February featuring Duane Gish from the Institute for Creation Research. 

Tuesday, November 28 - I had another bone marrow biopsy a week ago and am now just waiting for the results.  Of course, the procedure itself is not any fun - it's actually quite painful for a few minutes.  This one didn't seem to be as bad as the rest of them.  Maybe I'm getting used to it or I was just a little more relaxed.  We had a chance to take some pictures of the instruments that are used in the process - very medieval looking.   Also, my doctor explained how everything worked so it was an educational experience this time around.  We are praying that the results will come back negative again.

I am doing fairly well right now.  Other than being physically weaker, it's hard to notice that anything happened.  I am looking forward to returning to work full-time.  Right now I just teach the first two hours of the day and then sit in our school's conference room working on homework or doing research. 

I was given the opportunity to share my testimony at church on Sunday night.  I am excited to see how God will use this experience for his glory.  I know that my situation has already provided some hope for others who are having tough times so I am thankful for that.  Also, after be able to give this talk three times, I have heard from several people that it really touched them. 

Thanks again for checking on my progress and for the prayers.  I will keep you posted on my progress.  I'm expecting to hear the results of the test today or tomorrow so check back soon.

Thursday, November 16 - It's been nearly two weeks since I was able to return to work on a part-time basis.  A lot of people have been wondering how well I am holding up.  During my first two days, I kept telling people that I couldn't tell if I was getting worn out because I was just too excited to be teaching again.  I am absolutely thrilled to be back even though it's only for two classes.  Lord willing, I will be able to teach my full regimen of classes beginning in January. 

Physically, I am feeling pretty good.  My knees have been pretty sore since leaving the hospital.  I thought it might be due to the weakness of my legs and thought they would improve as my legs regained strength.  Well, I am getting stronger but my knees (especially the left) have remained sore.  I'm not sure if this is a side effect of the medications I was on or if I've developed some tendonitis in the knee.  Other than that, I am feeling really good.

I had a wonderful opportunity to speak at an apologetics conference last weekend.  Bodie Hodge of Answers in Genesis was the main speaker and I enjoyed getting to know him.  I was given the opportunity of opening the conference with my testimony.  I spoke about my experiences with leukemia and shared how important it is to take God at His Word.  Just like cancer spreads from a small group of cells to the whole body or region of the body, unsound doctrine infects one's entire belief system and the church as a whole (2 Tim. 2: 15 - 17).  Both cancer and unsound doctrine are hard to detect until it is almost too late.  That is why it is so crucial for believers to study God's Word on a regular basis and make sure they are "rightly dividing the Word of truth." 

We have been so blessed during this time.  I want to continue to thank everyone for their prayers and support.  I am trying to finish up one of my summer classes that was put on hold because of my illness.  Please pray that I will finish this in the near future so I can focus on getting back to teaching full-time. 

I will be going in for another bone marrow biopsy on Tuesday, November 21st.  Once again, please pray that both tests will come back negative.  I will continue to update you on my progress. 

Monday, October 30 - I am still fighting off the effects of the last dose of chemo.  So far it hasn't been too bad at all.  I had my numbers checked on Thursday and everything was fine.  We were able to go to Minnesota for the weekend to visit my wife's family.  I was also able to attend the Worldview Weekend conference in St. Paul with my old youth group.  It was great to have a chance to work with youth again - the first time since last school year ended. 

I am going in on Thursday for another blood check.  If the numbers are good enough, I might be able to start work right away.  As it stands, I have been cleared to start on November 13th but I am hoping to start a week earlier, if possible.  I still have a lot that I need to finish before I start again, but I am very excited to get back to work.  I am feeling stronger each and every day and was able to walk for more than a mile a couple of times in the last week.   

It has amazed me how quickly the disease came on and how quickly I was cured of it.  I know that a relapse is still possible but from what I have read, it is a low possibility (about 7%).  Thanks for the continued prayers.  They are certainly being answered.

Thursday, October 19 - We sat in the hospital for about five hours today - they were busy!  I had the MUGA scan first and the results were pretty good.  My LVEF (left ventrical ejection fraction) was at 56.6 (up from 52 two weeks ago).  Anything over 50 is considered normal.  After consulting with a cardiologist, my doctor decided to proceed with the last dose of chemo. 

It's sort of bittersweet.  Obviously, I didn't want any more chemo in my body, but knowing that it was the last dose made it a lot easier.  The dose was equal to what I received each time in my first round.  Hopefully, the side effects will be minimal.  My doctor isn't expecting them to be too bad since he is allowing us to return home tomorrow.  I will just need to get a blood count once a week.  My scheduled treatment will finish up with another bone marrow biopsy some time around Thanksgiving.

As long as all goes well, it looks like I should be able to return to work part-time on November 13.  I'm really excited about that but I have a lot to do before that day rolls around.  Thanks again for checking on my progress and thank you even more for the prayers.   

Wednesday, October 18 - We traveled back to Green Bay today for another set of appointments.  Tomorrow morning I will be having another MUGA scan to determine if my heart can take another dose of chemo.  I had one of these scans a couple of weeks ago and my heart tested in the normal range but was on the very low end of that range.  My doctor wanted to see how my heart tested when I was healthier - last time my numbers had bottomed out.   

The results of this scan will determine when/if I receive the last dose of chemo.  If the scan results are low, then I need to see a cardiologist to see whether or not I should receive the last dose.  If the results are pretty good then I should receive the last dose on Friday or Monday.  I guess I'm rooting for a strong heart and the last dose of chemo even though the no chemo option sounds tempting (but not at the risk of a weakened heart). 

I'll keep you posted on the results.  Thanks for checking on my progress and for your prayers.  It looks like we are almost through this thing.  I continue to pray that God will receive the glory for all of this.  I am putting together a talk on the importance of sound doctrine that will incorporate some of my experiences in this battle.  Please contact me if you would like to have me speak at your church on this issue.

Friday, October 13 - I spent much of the past two days in our local hospital.  On Wednesday, I needed to go in to get my blood checked.  Everything was on the way up except for the hemoglobin, which was still going down.  It was low enough for me to need some blood transfusions.  I had to get some more blood drawn so they could find a good match.  Yesterday, I was at the hospital receiving two units of blood. 

I don't like receiving blood transfusions but I do feel a lot better today.  I have more energy and I'm not so pale anymore.  I also received another Aranesp shot to help boost my red blood cell count.  Hopefully, this will kick in soon and I'll feel even better.  I will probably be receiving the final dose of chemo some time next week.  Thanks again for all your prayers! 

Monday, October 9 - Friday was a very nice day for us.  We were able to move home and I was finally able to have my PICC line pulled out of my arm.  It's nice to feel like things are getting back to normal.  My daughter will be able to return to school tomorrow.  I am trying to make the transition from battling leukemia to preparing for teaching. 

I am still recovering from the latest round of chemo, which has been a little harder than I expected.  The shortness of breath is getting a little bit better but I still cannot really do any physical activity without getting very winded.  We hope this will continue to improve as my counts come up. 

I have an appointment on Wednesday to check my blood counts.  If they are high enough then I can proceed with the final dose of chemo, which is tentatively scheduled for next Monday.  This dose will be the smallest of all the rounds of chemo so hopefully it will be the easiest to get through. 

Thanks again for all your prayers and support.  We continue to be amazed at all God is doing for us during this time.  Please continue to pray that the next month will go smoothly as we go through what we hope will be the final treatment for this disease.     

Wednesday, October 4 - I was released from the hospital yesterday.  My numbers were still pretty low and I have now caught a cold.  I had an appointment this morning and most of my numbers have climbed quite well.  My platelets are still low but they have slowly starting to come up.  They also gave me a shot of Aranesp, which helps my bone marrow make red blood cells.  My red blood cell count has been very low (just barely high enough to avoid getting a blood transfusion) and this may help with the shortness of breath that I have been experiencing.  The past few days have been the worst in this area.  I get very dizzy and out of breath just by walking up the stairs. 

I have another appointment on Friday morning and if my numbers are high enough then we plan to head home, possibly for good this time.  I will still have a few more appointments in Green Bay (last dose of chemo and another bone marrow biopsy) but it looks like we're almost through the whole treatment.  I may also be getting my PICC line pulled from my arm.  That would be wonderful.  It's been very annoying to have this thing in my arm for the past three months but it certainly beats getting poked by needles every time I go in for testing.

Monday, October 2 - I had the MUGA scan (see Sunday's post for details) around 11:00 this morning.  The preliminary test results showed that my heart is functioning normally - although it is on the very low end of "normal."  The chemo drug that I had for the last round can have this type of effect on people and it should get better as the chemo drug leaves my body. 

My numbers are still pretty low but most of them seem to be on the way up.  My platelets are continuing to go down.  The doctor said that platelets are typically the last to recover.  My white blood cells and neutraphil counts came up.  If these continue to climb then I should be out of the hospital soon. 

Sunday, October 1 - I'm still in the hospital but feeling pretty good.  My numbers are still declining a bit and my neutraphil count is at zero.  My platelets are 36.  So right now I'm at a high risk for infection and bleeding.  As long as I avoid those things then I should be fine in a few days.

I am scheduled to have a MUGA scan tomorrow.  This is a test to examine my heart's performance.  The doctors aren't sure why I've been so short of breath lately and thought it could be something with my heart.  My blood pressure is also quite a bit lower than it has been so it could be something with the heart.  Hopefully, everything will be okay.   

It's possible that the shortness of breath may be due to low numbers and being out of shape.  I have not been able to exercise much over the past three months so it's not a surprise that I'm having trouble when doing something physical.

As always, thanks for your prayers.  Please continue to pray that all will go well and that I'll be given a clean bill of health soon.  I will continue to keep you posted on my progress.  Also, please pray for my wife.  Her grandfather passed away on Friday night.  She also lost her great-grandmother shortly after I was admitted back in July.  She has had to deal with a lot over the past three months so please keep her in your prayers. 

Saturday, September 30 - I was admitted to the hospital last night.  This is mostly a precautionary measure since my numbers are so low.  As long as I don't get sick then I will probably be able to go home in the middle of the week.  Lord willing, I will be close to being in the clear after that.  I have one more dose of chemo in a few weeks but it should not be too bad. 

I still have not had the mouth sores or stomach ulcers.  I hesitate to type this but it's beginning to look like I may make it through this round without them.  I have had other side effect: shortness of breath, tiredness, and more, but nothing as rough as the mouth sores.  Please continue to pray that I will recover quickly and be able to get back to "normal" life soon. 

Friday, September 29 - As expected, my numbers were very low and I am once again neutrapenic.  This means that my immune system is virtually non-existent and I am on a special diet.  I don't expect this to last for more than a week since I was given a shot on Monday to help stimulate my bone marrow to start working again. 

Thankfully, I was not admitted although it was a tough decision for my doctor.  He sent me home with an antibiotic and set up an appointment for today.  My guess is that I will probably be admitted later today.  Apparently, I am doing pretty well at this point.  My doctor expected me to have trouble swallowing and to have some mouth sores.  So far I haven't had that and I pray this continues.  I will continue to keep you posted on my progress.    

Thursday, September 28 - I have an appointment later today to check my numbers.  They will probably be quite low.  My doctor still expects that I will need to be admitted for several days due to low numbers.  Last night I began running a low fever which is not a very good sign.  If my immune system is too weak then I will have no way to fight off an infection and will need to stay at the hospital for antibiotic treatments.  So far I have only experienced a couple of the side effects so this week hasn't been too fun but at least I haven't had the mouth sores. 

Thank you for your continued support and prayers.  Please continue to pray that I can get through this round without too much trouble.  The next round is supposed to be pretty easy since it's only one dose of chemo.  So the next week will probably be the worst of what still lies ahead for me.  After that, things should be pretty good and I can start focusing on moving home and returning to work. 

Friday, September 22 - I finished my final dose of the third round of chemo today.  So far I feel alright but the worst of the side effects aren't expected until the middle of next week.  Please continue to pray that the side effects will be minimal - especially the mouth sores.  We are so thankful for all the prayers and support we have received from so many people. 

I will try to keep you posted on how things are going during the next week.

Thursday, September 21 - I will be going in for my fourth dose of chemo today.  I'm still feeling okay but have noticed that I'm starting to feel a bit off.  I've had a little bit of nausea this morning and my stomach just hasn't felt right today.  This is about the same time that I started to feel bad during the last round of chemo.  So I expect the next two weeks from now to be tough but after that I should be alright.  Please pray that the side effects will be kept to a minimum and I will be able to head home and start work as soon as possible.

Monday, September 18 - As expected, I began my third round of chemo today.  I'm really not looking forward to it.  I will be receiving the chemo for five straight days.  This round is supposed to be tougher than the last round.  There's a good chance that I'll be getting the mouth sores again along with many of the other nasty side effects.  So please pray that these will be kept to a minimum.  One of the interesting side effects is that the whites of my eyes may turn blue for a while (the chemo medicine is blue). 

The doctor told me that there is a chance that I will need to be admitted for a few days late next week because my numbers will be very low.  Again, I'm not excited about it but at least I know it will be for a short time.

Some people have asked why I still need to go through with the chemo after receiving negative test results last week.  I guess the answer is that I may still have some leukemia but it is undetectable at this point and we want to be sure that we get everything.  Plus, there is a prescribed way to handle this type of leukemia and we are just following that course of action.  So the next few weeks will probably not be very fun for me but after that I should be in the clear. 

Thank you again for all of the prayers.  We are amazed at how quickly this sort of thing can come on but also how quickly it can be over.  My doctor said that I probably had leukemia since June and now it is undetectable.  It's really quite amazing.  We are so thankful for the team of doctors and nurses we have had and for all of the prayers that God's people have offered on our behalf.  He has certainly been answering them. 

I will keep you posted on my progress over the next few weeks.  Thanks for checking!

Friday, September 15 - Praise God!  We just received a phone call from our doctor.  He said that the bone marrow test results came back early and they were both negative.  Technically, I am cancer-free at this point - at least as far as they can detect.  I have an appointment on Monday and will probably still need to go through with the next round of chemo.  This one is supposed to be a little bit tougher than the last round but much better than the first one.  Also, I will probably be taken off of the daily chemo drug that I have been on.  That should help with the joint pain that I've been having for the past two weeks. 

Thanks again for all the prayers.  They are definitely being answered.  I'll keep you posted on how things go next week.  God bless! 

Monday, September 11 - Several people have been asking us if there is anything they can do to help us out during this time.  Until now, we have not asked for any financial help although many of you have been very generous by sending gifts (Thank you!).  My school has just begun to take up a collection to help us cover some of our financial needs that we have incurred during this tough time.  If you are interested in donating to this fund, please send your donation to:

Tri-State Christian School / 11084 Hwy 20W / Galena, IL 61036.  (Be sure to put "care fund" and my name in the memo line of your check)

I had my third bone marrow biopsy this afternoon.  It felt a lot like the first one so it wasn't too bad - certainly much better than the second biopsy.  I was given a drug to help take the edge off and it seemed to have helped.  Mostly, it just made me relaxed and tired.  I slept for two hours once I got home.  That's probably why I'm up late typing this update right now (it's after 1:00 AM).  The biopsy is going to be sent to Mayo Clinic again for the same two tests: hematological and molecular.  Last time, the hematological came back negative and the molecular came back positive.  We are praying that both tests come back negative.  If this happens then the leukemia will be considered to be in full remission and I will be taken off the daily chemo pills that I've been on for the past two months. 

I will be returning to the hospital on the 18th to find out the results of today's biopsy.  I will also be starting the third round of chemo that day.  This round will have five treatments of ten mL each.  It will also be a different type of chemo drug than I have had before.  The doctor said that this round is typically a bit tougher than the last round but not nearly as hard as the first round.  Round two wasn't too bad but it wasn't that fun, either.  Please continue to pray that the side effects will be minimal - especially the mouth sores.  Thankfully, I was able to avoid them during the second round.

My numbers were pretty good again and I am no longer neutropenic.  They are still low but are on the way up.  The nice thing about this is that my numbers went up on their own.  While in the hospital I was receiving shots to help the bone marrow get to work on making new cells.  I did not need any shots this time around.

We are planning to head home tomorrow for the rest of the week.  My daughter is already there.  She is staying with friends so that she wouldn't miss a day of school.  Because my numbers were so low last week I was not able to make a stop at the school.  Lord willing, this week will be different.  I hope to stop in a couple of times to say "hi" to everyone.  I've really missed the students and staff at Tri-State and can't wait to see them.

We continue to be so blessed by the amount of love and support we have received from so many people.  Thank you so much for the cards, gifts, emails, and most of all, the prayers.  I am so thankful to serve the only God that can hear and answer prayers and save people from their sins.  I am also thankful that He is willing to listen to our prayers even though we don't deserve an audience with Him because we are sinful and He is holy.  Yet He continues to show His love towards each of us in that He allows us to live, gives us more than we need, and loves us despite all of our sins.  For that, I am eternally grateful.   

Wednesday, September 6 - It feels good to be home!  I had some more blood work done yesterday.  As expected, the numbers had dropped a little bit more and I am just barely neutropenic again.  My ANC (absolute neutrophil count) was at .953 - anything under 1.00 is considered neutropenic.  Basically, this means that my immune system is very weak right now and I have to be extra careful - stricter diet, avoid crowds, etc.  Although I am neutropenic I still feel pretty good.     

My doctor gave us the okay to go home for the week.  So we are enjoying our small taste of normalcy.  Kayla had her first day of school today and was very excited to be back.  Judah was thrilled to be playing with his toys again.  Hopefully, this will alleviate some of the homesickness they have been experiencing these past two months.

I am scheduled to have another bone marrow biopsy on Monday.  We will likely find out the results on the following Monday, which happens to be my daughter's ninth birthday.  I am hoping to be able to tell her that both tests - the molecular and hematological tests - have come back negative.  She said that would be the best birthday present because it would mean that the leukemia is in full remission.  Please pray for these results.   

After missing a month due to the hospital stay, our newsletter will be going out tomorrow.  If you have not already subscribed to our free monthly newsletter, and would like to be, click here and send a blank email.  The newsletter contains a few brief articles, updates on the ministry, prayer requests, and more.  All of the past newsletters are archived on this site - just click on the "Newsletter" button on the left side of your screen to view them.

Friday, September 1 - Another month!  When I was transferred to the ICU back on July 16 the month of August seemed so far away.  I remember waiting until midnight to watch the nurse tear off another page of my calendar.  Now it's September and the ICU is a distant memory.  Actually, I don't remember too much from the four days that I was in there nor do I really want to.

I had some more blood tests this morning.  We had been expecting the numbers to drop a bit due to the chemo treatments last week.  The platelets, hemoglobin, white blood cells, and neutrophil counts all dropped.  Each of the numbers were on the low end of being considered normal.  For example, the neutrophil count is 1.1 - if they drop below 1.0 then I will be considered to be neutropenic again.  If that happens, then I will be very susceptible to infections again and will also be on a stricter diet.  My platelets are at 157 (normal is 150 - 450).  I'm not sure if the numbers are supposed to level off pretty soon or if they already have.  We are hoping this is as low as they get. 

I will be going in again on Tuesday for another blood test.  If the numbers are better than today, and I'm feeling up to it, then I think we will be heading home for a few days next week.  We really hope to do this and it would be very good for the kids.  They are both EXTREMELY homesick.  Please keep them in your prayers.  Also, please pray that my numbers won't drop too much more and that I will be able to avoid any infections if I do become neutropenic. 

We continue to feel so blessed to have so much support from friends and family.  We are also so grateful for all that God has done for us during this time.  I feel like I've been given a new lease on life.  Seven weeks ago I was in terrible shape and now I'm feeling almost as good as I was in June.  I know I'm not in the clear yet but I feel like it's just a matter of time before I am.     

Wednesday, August 30 - It's been nine days since I started my second round of chemo and I am still feeling pretty good.  I have only experienced minor side effects from the chemo.  I haven't had any of the mouth sores so I am extremely grateful for that.

I don't really have any medical updates to give you today but just wanted to assure everyone that things were going pretty well.  I was able to begin work on finishing the two courses that I began earlier this summer.  I am thankful that The Institute for Creation Research was willing to grant me an extension for these classes.  I am planning to transfer these two classes into my Master of Divinity degree program at Liberty University.  I guess it's a good sign that I'm able to concentrate enough to do some serious reading and to begin writing papers again. 

We are hoping to make a trip home for a few days next week.  Of course, this all depends on how I am feeling and whether or not my numbers are good enough.  I'll have a better idea about these things on Friday after my appointment.

I have been talking to some of my fellow teachers at school and it makes me miss it all the more.  I can't wait to get back to doing what I love doing - teaching.  I was so excited about this school year and it's been hard for me to miss the beginning of it.  Now I'm even more excited to get back into it.  I know it will still be a little while but I am really looking forward to it.  I miss the staff and students at Tri-State and can't wait to see them again.

As always, thank you so much for your prayers, encouragement, love and support.  We can't say thank you enough.  Please continue to pray for me and my family as we are waiting around to see how well the second round of chemo treatment has gone.  

Monday, August 28 - I had a checkup this afternoon to check my blood counts.  We are expecting the numbers to drop due to the chemo treatments from last week.  As of today, my numbers were normal.  I need to go back in on Friday to check the numbers again. 

I felt okay over the weekend.  As expected, I have been experiencing some of the side effects of the chemo.  I've been tired, sore, and had a little bit of problem with stomach pain.  Overall, I'm in much better condition than I was one week after my first chemo round began so we are confident that I can make it through without the serious side effects.

Please continue to pray that this past round of chemo has knocked out the remaining leukemia cells.  Also, please keep our two kids in your prayers.  They are getting extremely homesick and just long for things to return to normal.  We are looking forward to that, too.  Thanks again for all of your love, support, and prayers.

Friday, August 25 - I finished up my second round of chemo yesterday.  I am hoping that this will be my final round but it really depends on the results of my next bone marrow biopsy (Sept. 11th, results on the 18th).  I did receive a prescription for a medication that will make the next biopsy easier to deal with. 

I felt pretty lousy last night.  I had a lot of stomach discomfort but I'm not sure if that was due to the chemo or just overdoing it a little bit.  I have been pretty active over the past week and I should probably be getting a little more rest.  So I will be trying to do that over the next few days to see if that helps.  I'm feeling better this morning after a good night's sleep so hopefully that's a sign of things to come.

The next few days will be very telling as to how I respond to the chemo.  Most of the side effects do not manifest themselves until about 5 - 10 days after receiving treatment.  My first dose was on Monday so tomorrow will be the fifth day.  We are hoping and praying that I will be able to get through without the ulcers.  That was by far the toughest direct side effect of the chemo.  The nosebleeds were very difficult but were sort of an indirect side effect - the result of low numbers due to the chemo. 

Please pray that the side effects will be minimal or non-existent.  If I can make it through this round without too much difficulty then we will probably be able to move back home in about three weeks.  We continue to feel so blessed to have so many people praying for us.  Thank you so much.   

Tuesday, August 22 - Round two, dose two.  So far, so good.  There's not too much to report mostly because the side effects usually take several days to show up.  We remain hopeful that the side effects will be minimal this time around and that all of the treatment can be outpatient. 

We had a little mix-up yesterday with the amount of idarubacin (the chemo drug) that I was supposed to receive.  During my month in the hospital I was repeatedly told that I was receiving 12 mg of idarubacin and that I would only be receiving 5 mg during the second round.  When we saw the syringe of idarubacin it was marked at 12 mg.  It didn't look like the same amount I was receiving during the first round but it was marked the same.  I questioned why it was 12 mg when I was told all month (and even by my doctor in the morning) that I was going to receive 5 mg.  The problem was that they were not using the full label.  In the hospital, I was actually receiving 30 mg of idarubacin, which is equal to 12 mg/square meter of body area.  The 12 mg that I am receiving now is equal to 5 mg/square meter of body area.  So, if any of my former chemistry students are reading this, now you know why it is so important to have the proper units. :)

Today would have been my first day of school if I was healthy.  I really miss it and wish I could be there.  At this point, I am hoping to be able to make it back part-time by the beginning of October.  This really depends on the side effects of this round of chemo and how successful the treatment is.  If all goes well, then I should be back by then.  Of course, those are my plans.  I'm not sure what God has in store for me so I just need to wait on His perfect timing. 

Monday, August 21 - This morning we went to the hospital to find out the results of last week's bone marrow biopsy.  We were hoping to hear that both the hematological and molecular tests would come back negative.  I guess one out of two isn't bad.  The hematological test came back negative.  Basically, that means that the doctors at both Mayo Clinic and our hospital in Green Bay could not detect any cancer cells under the microscope.  That's a huge change from a month ago when they were very easy to spot.  The molecular test came back positive.  This test is able to detect one bad gene out of ten thousand.  My test came back showing just a few per ten thousand.  My doctor told me that it was about a thousandth of what I had when I checked in.  So the first round of chemo was extremely successful in knocking out a large percentage of the leukemia. 

I began my second round of chemo treatment earlier this afternoon and will go back each day for the next three days to receive another dose.  We are continuing to pray that the side effects will be minimal - especially the ulcers in the mouth and stomach.  The dosage is only about 40% of what I received last time and I'm in much better shape than I was at the start of the last round (I was in ICU) so I have a good chance of making it through without too much trouble.  At this point, we are counting on doing the whole thing on an outpatient basis.

Of course all of this means that I will need to have another bone marrow biopsy in about three weeks to find out if the leukemia is in full remission.  I'm not looking forward to having another one of these done but I am confident that the results will make it worth the while.  I will keep you posted on my progress so check back regularly.  Thanks again for all your prayers and support.  I have heard several stories on how God is being glorified throughout this and for that I am thankful. 

My life seems to be getting back to normal (other than living at my parents' house and having a PICC line in my left arm).  I have been driving a little bit and have been able to eat normally again (my taste buds are still dulled but it's much better).   I have been going to church, out to eat, to the store, and even took my son to a movie last night.  All of this makes it easier to cope with the treatment.  Last time all I could do was lay in a hospital bed.  

Monday, August 14 - This morning I went in for another bone marrow biopsy.  This one seemed more painful than last month's.  I'm not sure if it's because last time I had much more on my mind (I had just found out that I had leukemia ten minutes prior to the biopsy) or if it just hurt more.  It still wasn't too bad but I'd rather not go through it again.  We won't know the results of it until next Monday because they are sending the sample of bone marrow to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. 

I do have some very good news to report.  My platelets are at 457 (normal is 150 - 450) and all my other numbers are normal.  The doctor told me that based on my blood counts he would say that I am in remission; however, he couldn't make a final determination until the results of the biopsy come back.  He sent it off for two tests: hematological and molecular.  We are hoping that both come back negative.  If that is the case then the leukemia would be in complete remission.  I would probably still go through the second round of chemo starting next Monday or Tuesday.  My next appointment is Monday so I won't know anymore about the situation until then. 

My appetite is starting to come back a little.  I had my first double cheeseburger today (A & W) and I was able to taste it better than I have for the past month.  I trust that the energy level will come up as I am able to eat a little more. 

We want to continue to say thank you for the cards, emails, and prayers.  Please pray that the test results will be negative and that I will continue to gain energy and strength.  Also, pray that my lower back will heal up quickly from the biopsy this morning.  We are hopeful that if the test results are negative and I respond well to the next round of chemo that we will be able to return home in a few weeks.  We have truly been blessed to be able to be treated in Green Bay but it will also be nice to feel like things are returning to normal.  I will try to update this some time before next Monday to let you know how things are going.  God bless!      

Tuesday, August 8 - Everything went well yesterday and last night.  This morning's report showed that my numbers had continued to climb quite rapidly.  For example, my platelets were at 110.  As a result, I was able to leave the hospital around noon today.  I have an appointment on Monday to do another bone marrow biopsy and I will probably start the next round of chemo the following week. 

I have really enjoyed being at my parents' house so far.  We've had a lot of family over and it's been fun for me to watch the little ones run around and interact.  I've been able to walk around a lot more in an attempt to gain some strength and stamina.  All the activity has really tired me out.  It's amazing how low one's energy level can be after nearly four weeks in a hospital bed and a round of chemo.

I probably won't post anything tomorrow unless something major happens.  Whenever there is any news to report I will post it on here.  So please check back periodically.  I'm very thankful for all your prayers and encouragement.  I'm not in the clear yet but I've made it through the toughest part - as long as everything goes as planned from here on out.   

Monday, August 7 - Today has been a very good day.  My doctor returned and gave me some great news.  My platelets had climbed to 47 on their own.  This is still low but I'm making great progress.  He took me off nearly all my medications and said that as long as I don't run a fever today then I can go home tomorrow.

I have felt pretty good all day.  I've been able to eat whatever I want to but there still isn't a whole lot of taste.  The nurse said that that will get better as time goes on. 

Now I need to focus on gaining strength and energy.  I've lost about 35 pounds since checking in.  Unfortunately, much of that was from my arms and legs.  I barely have enough strength to make it down the hallway and back.  I'm sure that will get much better once I get out of here (hopefully and prayerfully tomorrow).

We are so thankful for all that God has been doing through this.  We received an email yesterday from a woman who told us that several people have had their faith strengthened by reading through some of the articles on this site (click on the link at the top to see these).  So many people have blessed us since this started.  We're grateful that we can be a blessing in return.  Again we just pray that Jesus Christ will receive the glory through all of this.  I know that I've still got a long way to go but I know that He can see us through.  Thanks again for your prayers! 

Sunday, August 6 - I think today has been my best day since the chemo started.  I have felt pretty good all day, went for a brief walk down the hallway, and even showered.  My numbers have continued to climb on their own and my rash is much more tolerable.  The doctor told me that he thought I would probably be released soon.  They have taken me off of the IV altogether.  I might still receive a few antibiotics through the IV but most of my medication will be oral. 

I have been able to eat solid foods but they still don't have much taste.  I'm not complaining - at least I can eat and for that I'm thankful. 

My hair has started to fall out.  I know most of you are thinking "How can you tell?"  In case you are really wondering, I can see a bunch of hair on my pillow when I wake up.  That's alright.  I really don't care if I have hair or not.  That's probably the least of my concerns.  I guess that's easy for a balding guy to say.

Anyways, things are going pretty good right now.  Please pray that my numbers will continue to climb (my platelets were at 29 this morning - normal is anywhere between 150 - 450).  My other numbers are still low but they are slowly climbing.  So I feel good and things look like they are on the right track.  Thank you again for your prayers and support.  I can't thank you enough. 

Saturday, August 5 - After days of seeing my numbers drop we finally saw a little bit of improvement.  At 6:00 AM yesterday my platelets were at 24.  By 6:00 PM they were at 21.  At 6:00 AM this morning they were at 18.  So they were slowly dropping (they had dropped more than 20 in one day just a few days ago).  The doctor thought they might be leveling off so he decided to hold off on giving me any platelets.  At 6:00 PM tonight they were 26.  That is the best news I have heard in days.  The platelets have a lot to do with clotting.  My other numbers are still low but they seem to be slowly improving.  I hope this trend continues.

I have been able to eat a little more today, too.  I was able to eat about a third of a hamburger - it was just Burger King but it was a start.  The right side of my mouth is still a little sore so I have to chew everything on the left side.

I've been struggling a bit with the rash on my chest and shoulders.  It's been quite itchy today but they just gave me some medicine that is supposed to help with that.

I had been feeling a little low because my numbers had been dropping steadily for the past few days.  Now, I'm very excited that my platelet count started to climb on its own.  Up until this time I have needed transfusions to keep the platelets high enough to avoid bleeding.

Being a Packers fan today was a good day.  I was able to watch Reggie White's induction into the Hall of Fame.  Right now, I'm watching the Packers annual scrimmage.  I'm hoping that I'll be able see the fireworks from my hospital room.

I am so thankful for the courage and strength that God has given me throughout this ordeal.  I don't know how people make it through things like this without trusting in Him.  Please continue to pray that He will receive all the glory through this.  Also, please pray that my numbers will continue to climb and that I will be ready to go home (at least my parents' house) soon.  I'm really looking forward to spending time with my kids.  Thanks again for all your prayers.

Friday, August 4 - Not much has changed since yesterday.  I still feel pretty good but my numbers are still really low.  I have been worried about getting a nosebleed but so far it hasn't happened.  I still have the rash from yesterday and the petechiae are spreading.  I know the petechiae are just a result of a low platelet count but it makes it seem like I'm starting all over again because I had so many of them when I checked in.  So please pray that my platelet count will begin to rise and that I won't have any bleeding problems.

The doctor told me today that he expects to see the numbers go up soon.  He said that it is typical to see the numbers go up and down like they have been.  I'm far enough away from my last chemo treatment that the numbers should start climbing.

I still haven't been able to eat anything real solid.  I can eat mashed potatoes and even had some baked cod for lunch.  It just takes too long to chew at this point because I need to use my front teeth.  I'm getting close.

I know I've written it many times but we continue to feel so blessed by the number of prayers and encouraging comments that we receive.  I'm looking forward to seeing my doctor back on Monday.  He certainly helps me feel a lot more confident than the doctors that are filling in.  We still remain confident that God will see us through this.  I am really looking forward to getting out of here and spending more time with friends and family.  Thanks again for all the prayers for me and my family.  

Thursday, August 3 - Today has been a lot like yesterday.  I have felt pretty good all day and haven't really had any setbacks.  There are still a few concerns, though.  I am having a reaction to one of the drugs they are giving me so I have a rash on my chest, shoulders, and back.  I didn't notice it until my wife said something so it hasn't really bothered me.

Another concern is that most of my numbers dropped today.  I am neutropenic again so I am still at a high risk for infection.  My platelet count is very low again so I'm at a high risk for bleeding and I've had little purple spots, called petechiae, breaking out in some areas.  I had these on my feet about a month ago.  They were really the first sign of the leukemia but we had no idea what they were.  My doctor just informed me that the platelets are dropping rapidly.  He said that my own immune system may be attacking them.  They have treatments they can do for it but please pray that I do not start bleeding again and that my platelet count will start climbing.

Nevertheless, I still feel pretty good.  I met a young man who is a cancer patient just down the hall.  He grew up in the Viroqua area, which is where we just moved away from last year.  It's strange because they lived in two different houses and both of them were within one mile of the two houses we lived in while we were in that area.  I guess it really is a small world.  He has a form of cancer that is much tougher to treat than mine so please pray for him, too.  His name is Josh.

I am really looking forward to eating solid food.  I tried to eat a pancake this morning.  I was able to chew it but it tasted so bad that I didn't want another bite.  I am going to try some mashed potatoes for dinner.  I'm still really looking forward to that big juicy hamburger. 

We continue to be amazed and blessed by the number of encouraging cards, emails, etc.  Thank you so much.  Today is the start of week number four.  My doctor said it would be a four week program so please pray that I will get out of here on time.  I can't wait to breathe fresh air again and spend time with family and friends.  I know I still have a long road ahead and it looks like we'll be in Green Bay until the end of October.  Please continue to pray for a full recovery and for my family.  Thank you again!  May God bless you and may He alone be glorified through all of this. 

Wednesday, August 2 - Today was one of those good news/bad news days.  First, the bad news.  I found out this morning that I will still need to undergo three more rounds of chemotherapy.  These follow up treatments should be a little easier to deal with.  I will only receive three doses (rather than four) and the amounts will be less than the first time.  So, I will probably only be receiving about half as much chemo during each of the three rounds.  As long as I don't get the mouth sores then I think I'll do just fine.  Also, I should be in much better shape going into each one so it shouldn't be so rough.

The good news is that I am no longer neutropenic.  Since I have checked in, my neutrofil count has been so low that I have been at high risk of infection.  That is why I could not receive flowers or eat any uncooked fruits and vegetables.  As long as my neutrofil count remains where it is now (or climbs) then I will be able to eat anything I want.  Also, it's okay for me to have visitors now.  For the past week or so we have limited it to immediate family members only.

I was able to sleep on my side for the first time in weeks last night.  That gave my backside a much needed rest - I have been getting quite sore there.  I also got about 6 to 7 hours of sleep, which is probably the most since I've been here. 

My mouth continues to clear up and I've been able to eat a little more.  I actually had several bites of chicken noodle soup for lunch.  I probably could have eaten the whole bowl but it would have taken a long time.  I have to be very careful when I chew because I still have a few sores under my tongue.  I have to concentrate to keep all the food on the top or else it will be quite painful.

The doctor told me this morning that there is a chance that I will be out of here by early next week.  That would be wonderful but I'd rather hear it from my doctor first before getting my hopes up.  Unfortunately, I won't see him until Monday.  I can't wait to get back to my parents' house and see my kids.  It's been way too long.

Overall, I am feeling pretty good.  It seems as though I have made progress every day since Saturday's nosebleed.  I continue to be amazed by all of the emails, cards, and prayers from everyone.  It means so much to me and my family.  I wish there was a way for me to thank everyone individually.  It just goes to show how blessed I truly am.  Thank you so much.  Please continue to pray for my improvement and especially for my family.  I know it's been hard on the kids for me to be away for three weeks now.  Casey has been here every day so they don't see her as much either.  Please pray that we will get to spend a great deal of quality time together once I am through this.  Thank you!

Tuesday, August 1 - PROGRESS!!!  I am feeling a whole lot better right now.  I have not had a fever today.  No nosebleeds.  No shaking.  And now...No more balloon in my nose!!  Wow, do I feel better because of that.  Want more good news?  I just had my first shower since the 23rd.  As long as I don't have any more setbacks I should be able to shower much more often.  That would be wonderful.

I was able to eat a few soft foods - apple sauce, pudding, jello, and chicken broth.  I'm still hungry but at least I'm showing progress.  It's been a little easier to drink things but still hurts if I don't take my time.  My tongue is starting to clear up a bit.  I hope to be able to eat a little more tomorrow.

I've only had a few concerns today and those had to do with treatment.  My doctor is on vacation and his replacement has been doing things differently and, at times, against my doctors orders.  Plus, I had a new nurse this morning that was completely unfamiliar with my situation.  These things don't bolster my confidence much.

My numbers have continued to improve.  My white blood cell count doubled from 1.1 to 2.2.  My fibrinogen remained high and hemoglobin was high enough to avoid receiving red blood via IV.  That usually doesn't make me feel very good.  Last night I had a little contest with my nurse concerning my platelet count this morning.  I started yesterday at 30 and received two bags of it.  She said it would be around 55 this morning and I said 46.  Of course, these were both guesses.  This morning my platelet count was 46.  :)  My wife saw me type this and said, "Well, you're back to normal - bragging."  You can probably tell that the mood is lighter around here today.

Thanks again for all your prayers and support.  God has been so good to me.  Many of you have been asking about visiting me at the hospital.  My counts still aren't quite high enough but they are on the way up.  Because they are low, I am still at too high of a risk for infection.  My immune system is extremely weak so I can't fight off much.  I will keep you posted on this because I would love to have visitors but I just can't take any chances right now. 

Monday, July 31 - Well, I've made it to the end of the month.  Praise God!  When I checked in, the 31st seemed so far away and now it's here.  Today has been a pretty good day.  I haven't really had any setbacks.  No fever.  No nosebleeds.  My white blood cells are on the rise (slowly but surely) and my hemoglobin is alright.  My platelets were low again so I had to receive a couple of bags of that. 

I still have the balloon in my right nostril but the doctor deflated it so it feels a lot better.  I can actually get a little bit of air through the right side now and he will probably pull it out tomorrow.  I just hope and pray that it won't bleed once he does pull it. 

I was able to polish off a bowl of chicken broth and a couple of noodles.  Other than that, I still haven't had anything to eat since Saturday morning.  My mouth is feeling a little better so I'm hoping that I'll be able to eat something tomorrow. 

If all goes well I should be able to leave here in less than two weeks.  My doctor is off until next Monday so I hope that he will be very pleased when he sees my progress.  Everyone keeps saying how hot it has been over the past two weeks.  I've heard several people say things such as "You wouldn't want to be out there anyway because it's so hot."  Now, I don't really like it when it's over 80 degrees (today's heat index was 110 in GB) but I have to admit, I would much rather be outside than in here.  I haven't had a breath of fresh air since the morning of the 13th.  For me, fresh air is getting out into the hallway.  The problem is, I have to wear a mask whenever I'm in the hallway.  I can't win :)  (Actually, I've already won because I've got the best family, great friends, and Jesus has saved me from my sins.)

Please continue to pray that I will continue to improve on a daily basis and will be able to start eating soon.  That will go a long way in helping me recover.  Thank you for all the prayers and encouragement.  You are making 1 Cor. 12: 26 become a reality in my life.  May God bless you for all you are doing.

Sunday, July 30 - I want to start by saying "Thank you!" to all of you who have been praying, writing, calling, etc.  You've been such an encouragement to me.

Today has been a lot better than yesterday.  I had to fall asleep while breathing through my mouth.  Sometime during the night, my mouth closed and I panicked.  When I did, I ended up blowing out some of the clotting in my left nostril.  This sounds like a bad thing but I didn't bleed at all.  Better yet, I could breathe through my nose again.  When I woke up the nurse was able to deflate the balloon a little bit in my right nostril so I could breathe even better.  Tomorrow I will be seeing the nose specialist again so hopefully we'll get all of this cleared up.

I still haven't eaten anything since yesterday morning because of all the ulcers.  I'm not very hungry but I need to get the nutrition to help with the healing process.  It hurts to talk and it's very had to swallow pills.  Nevertheless, I still feel pretty good (I'm sure the drugs are helping out quite a bit) and look forward to feeling even better tomorrow. 

My numbers were really good this morning and I think today was the first day since starting chemo that I didn't need to get any sort of blood product (plasma, platelets, cryoprecipitate, etc.).  My doctor is encouraged and things seem to be going in the right direction.  I just need to suffer through a few more days (or weeks) of the effects of the chemo and I'll be doing fine.

I mentioned on Friday's post that there was some concern about an infection in my large intestine.  So far all the tests have come back negative.  Praise God for all the good news!  Please continue to pray that God will be glorified through all of this and that He will give me patience and strength. 

Saturday, July 29 - I woke up this morning at 7:00 with another nosebleed.  This time is was just in my right nostril and was not nearly as bad.  Unfortunately, the doctor on call put some sort of balloon in it and inflated it so now I cannot breathe through either nostril again.  So I'm back to breathing through just my mouth.  This doesn't help with all of the sores on my tongue.  It's really hard for me to be upbeat about this because the doctor could have done something different so that I could still breathe.  Now it's extremely hard for me to take my pills and almost impossible to eat.

Other than the breathing and eating troubles I have been doing a little better.  Most of my numbers look good but my platelets have still been too low.  Please pray that this setback won't have much of an impact on my recovery.  It's made me miserable but I pray it won't last long.  Please pray that God will give me the patience and strength to endure. 

Friday, July 28 - I've had a pretty full day.  Late last night I had a case of uncontrollable shakes for about 30 minutes.  That was pretty nerve wracking because I didn't know if/when it would stop.  Following that I had a decent night's sleep.

At 8:00 this morning I had an EGD (endoscopy something or other).  They put a camera down my throat to look at my small intestine.  They thought that I might have some internal bleeding there.  Fortunately, all they found were ulcers most of the way through.  That sounds painful but right now I am only having pain in my mouth.

Around noon I had a CT scan because they were concerned that I may have some infection.  They found an area of my large intestine that is a little bit swollen.  It may turn out to be an infection and if it ruptures I will need to have emergency surgery.  Of course, this would be very dangerous in my condition because of the risk of infection and lack of blood clotting.  It's also possible that its just some of the blood that I swallowed so much of the other day during my fourteen hour nosebleed.  Please pray that if it is an infection that the antibiotics will be able to wipe it out.

Throughout the day I have been battling a fever that ranges between 99 - 103.  My doctor stopped in tonight and said that he is starting me on a shot that will encourage bone marrow activity.  This is a good thing.  My white blood cell and platelet counts have been so low.  I am hoping and praying that I will be able to string together a few good days and that my mouth will feel good enough to eat something solid soon.  Thanks again for all your prayers and letters of encouragement.

Thursday, July 27 - I was finally able to get a good night's sleep and today has been a pretty good day.  My tongue is still pretty sore and since I've had a fever I am going to see an infection specialist.  Since I have virtually no immune system it is very easy for me to pick up some kind of bug.  On top of that, they gave me some morphine to help handle the pain.  Other than fever and tongue sores, I am feeling much better. 

It's hard to believe that today marks the start of my third week here.  Other than a couple of rough days, my stay hasn't been too bad.  Obviously, I miss my kids and would love to get some fresh air.  My wife has been here about 10 - 12 hours every day and sometimes overnight so that helps the time go by much faster.  She has been so great to me and I don't know how I could make it through without her.

The doctor said that I'm not out of the woods yet but we're through the toughest part of the treatment and I should begin getting better and better barring any more setbacks.  We continue to feel so blessed by all of your prayers, cards, and emails.  Thank you!  

Wednesday, July 26 - I was hoping for a good night's sleep but it wasn't meant to be.  I woke up at 1:00 AM with a nosebleed.  Since my blood is not clotting properly the nosebleed would not stop.  Both sides of my nose were bleeding profusely and as time went on things got worse.  At 7:00 AM I was taken to the emergency room to have my nose packed.  This was supposed to stop the bleeding and make things better.  Unfortunately, things kept going downhill.  My nose didn't stop bleeding but instead began clotting up in my throat.  Since my nose was packed I couldn't breathe through it so I had to breathe through my mouth.  Once the blood started clotting in my throat this became harder and harder.  By noon I was having a lot of trouble breathing.  I was constantly gagging and could only sit in one position.  As soon as I moved my head the gagging would start again.  It's hard to explain how stressful it is when you can't breathe.  I was in real trouble because of how much blood I had lost (the nosebleed lasted for more than 14 hours) and from breathing difficulties.  They kept giving me blood products but it wasn't really helping because I would just lose it right away.

At 4:00 I was taken to an ear, throat, and nose specialist.  He quickly found the source of the problem and pulled a popsicle-sized blood clot from my throat.  It had been attached to the pack in my left nostril so I could not cough it up.  Next, he pulled the packing out of my right nostril and used a spray to keep it from bleeding.  My left nostril posed a much bigger problem.  After pulling the packing out of it, the doctor tried to cauterize it using silver nitrate.  This didn't work because the wound was too big.  So he went to Plan B.  After numbing my nose, he performed an electrical cauterization.  In other words, he electrocuted the problematic blood vessel(s).  Then he put in some biodegradable packing that should disappear in 7 - 10 days.  By 5:00 I was finally able to breathe again and my health has been improving since.

Today was the toughest and most miserable day of my life - at least until 5:00.  I am now feeling much better and am looking forward to a good night's sleep.  I have been having a roller coaster fever.  It seems to go up to about 102 and then back to normal after taking some Tylenol.  Other than the fever, the only problem seems to be with my mouth.  I still have numerous sores and my tongue is swollen.  Please pray that my health will continue to improve and that God will be glorified through this whole thing.

Tuesday, July 25 - My doctor was very optimistic today.  I was unhooked from my IVs and was able to walk down the halls for the first time since the 16th.  It was nice to get some "fresh" air.  I haven't had any heartburn so it seems that I am continuing to get better.  The only pain that I am going through is that the chemo caused me to have some ulcers on my tongue.  It hurts to eat and talk but considering everything else that could have gone wrong, this isn't too bad.  I haven't had a good night's sleep for a few days so please pray that I'll be able to get some rest.  I'm sure that will go a long way in helping me feel even better.

It turns out that the 7 - 10 day prognosis may have been a bit premature.  That came from a doctor who was filling in yesterday for my regular doctor.  My doctor told me today that he is still planning on my stay being a full month.  I checked in on the 13th so I guess I still have a ways to go.  He did say that since I'm younger and in pretty good shape then I might be able to beat that.  I'm competitive so I'm going for it.  I'd rather not be staring at these same walls for another 2+ weeks.

We continue to be so blessed by God, friends, and families.  I can't say thank you enough for all the prayers, cards, emails, and letters.  

Monday, July 24 - I've been feeling pretty good today.  Each day starts out with some pretty bad heartburn.  The doctor said it was due to the chemotherapy.  He said that if I could see my esophagus and stomach they would be raw because the chemo eats away at the lining.  Usually this goes away by noon.  I didn't get quite as much sleep as I have been so I don't feel quite as rested as yesterday.  I have continued to receive so many cards and emails that I feel truly blessed and loved - even from people that I haven't seen since high school.  Thank you so much! 

The doctor also told me that if everything keeps going well I will probably be able to leave the hospital in 7 - 10 days.  It sounds like a long time (especially with the food around here) but so far time has gone by pretty quickly.  Some people have asked for an address for which to send cards.  You can send them to: ATTN: Tim Chaffey (Room 311) St. Mary's Hospital / 1726 Shawano Ave / Green Bay, WI 54303

Sunday, July 23 - So far, so good.  Today has easily been my best day since starting treatment.  I am getting my appetite back and food is starting to taste like food again.  For the past week everything has been so bland.  I can't tell you how much I want to sink my teeth into a nice big juicy burger. :)  My numbers have been doing fine and other than a few nosebleeds I have been doing well.  I guess I look a lot better, too.  I shaved for the first time in days, got a haircut, and had my first shower in over a week.  It's true that you don't know what you have until it's taken away.  I've taken so much for granted in my life but God is giving me a new perspective on things.

Speaking of new perspectives.  It's amazing how much things can change so quickly and how our plans don't always line up with God's plans.  I had planned on attending a friend's wedding yesterday and then going to Niagara Falls with my wife last night.  I was planning on waking up in a beautiful place rather than a drab hospital room.  I am not complaining - obviously I would have loved to proceed with my plans but I am learning so much here.  I am being challenged and changed in so many good ways and I have witnessed so many blessings from so many while being here.  I am sure that when I look back on this in the months to come that I will view this as an absolute blessing.  Strange, huh?  

I wanted to share an encouraging story with all of you.  It's really touched my life and thought it might bless you as well.  I mentioned earlier that Monday night (and Tuesday early morning - see below) was the toughest part of this whole ordeal.  I had trouble breathing and was scared that I might soon be taking my last breath.  It turns out that on Tuesday we received two emails from people that we have never met (in California) telling me that between 12:00 - 3:00 AM (the same time that I was having so much trouble) they were awakened or kept awake and had a huge burden to pray for me.  For whatever reason (obviously it was God's work) they just felt that I needed to be prayed for.  They were so faithful to keep praying during that entire time.  There's no way for me to explain any of this except that God was working through the lives of these two saints to keep me going.  It's amazing to see how God works.  As Psalm 14: 1 says, only a fool says there is no God.  I know that this is just anecdotal evidence and may not convince the ardent skeptic but I'd be interested to hear an explanation from someone as to how this could occur without God working.

Saturday, July 22 - I am continuing to improve.  I am getting a little more energy each and every day.  I had my final chemo treatment earlier today and am relieved to be done with it.  It's pretty strange watching some orange poison slowly drip into your body.  According to the doctor everything is going pretty well.  I am praying that it will wipe out all of the bad cells. 

I have received so many encouraging cards, emails, and letters.  This has been such a strange experience.  It's been humbling to have all my strength, energy, and health taken away but it's been so encouraging to see how many people truly care about me.  I am so thankful for your thoughts, prayers, letters, and cards.  Thank you!

Friday, July 21 - Today has been my best day since Saturday.  I still have very little, if any, strength.  I guess that is to be expected with all of the stuff they have me on (especially, the chemo).  I was moved from the ICU to the normal floor today.  The bed is much more comfortable (I actually fit on it).  I didn't sleep much last night but I feel pretty good right now.  My numbers continue to improve and tomorrow is my last scheduled dose of chemo.  I am really looking forward to being done with that and get on the road to recovery.  Right now, the treatment is wiping out all of the leukemia but it is also destroying the good cells.  Once the bad cells are gone then my body can begin recovering strength.

I am so thankful for all of your prayers and letters of encouragement.  I wish I had the energy and time to respond to each of you on an individual basis.  Maybe I can do that once I get out of here.  Please continue to pray for my recovery and for my family.  I was able to see my daughter today for the first time since Sunday.  That's been one of the hardest parts of this whole ordeal.  I miss them terribly but I don't really want them to see me in this condition.  I've been told that I'm looking much better than I had in the past week so maybe I'll get to spend more time with them soon.  God bless!

Thursday, July 20 - Another sleepy day.  I have not done much but lay around and sleep for the past three days.  This helps the time go by quicker but I'm also feeling very weak from the treatments.  I received my third dose of chemo this afternoon (only one more to go).  My numbers continue to improve and it looks like I may be able to leave the ICU pretty soon (Lord willing).  I've been hooked up to heart and oxygen monitors constantly since being in the ICU so it has really limited my mobility.  I have been able to breathe on my own all day - I had been hooked up to oxygen since coming to the ICU.  So progress is being made.  Please continue praying for my strength and health and that God will receive all the glory and honor through this.

Wednesday, July 19 - I slept most of the day today and the days seem to run together.  My numbers keep improving - (platelets 53 and white blood count at 17).  I am so thankful for all your prayers and support.  I know without the Lord's help I would never make it through this.  I have heard some pretty amazing stories since I have been here that I will share at a later time.  God is obviously working throughout the situation and I just pray that I will remember to honor Him.

Tuesday, July 18 - I was finally given some medication last night to put me to sleep.  I woke up around 7:00 AM and have been pretty drowsy all day.  My numbers are still pretty good and the doctor is very confident.  I was treated by a respiratory surgeon last night and this morning and he seems to think everything is going well.  The toughest part for me right now is my breathing.  When I take a full breath it is barely enough to fill my lungs for normal purposes.  The doctors and nurses have taken steps to improve my blood flow.  The chemo is knocking out the bad cells but my body had not been getting rid of them fast enough.  I have been given some medication to help with this and am feeling a lot better.  Around 6:00 PM I underwent my second round (out of four) of chemo treatment.  I will have some blood drawn around 11:00 tonight to see what effect it has had (is having) on my body.  We remain confident that all will be well.  I received a big surprise a couple of hours ago when my brother showed up from Texas (he just moved back there after a three year military stint in Germany).  I want to continue to say thank you for all of your prayers and support.  Please pray that God will continue to give me and my family the strength we need to get through all of this.  He has been so wonderful to me so far and I trust that He will continue to be even better.  Overall, I still pray that He will receive all the glory and honor throughout this ordeal.

Monday, July 17 - Today was the toughest day so far.  We started out with some good news - my numbers looked good.  White blood cell counts were lowered and my platelets were better.  Around 3:00 PM I started having some breathing trouble.  I have been averaging about 3 hours of sleep per night and knew that I needed to get more.  Unfortunately, I could not fall asleep no matter how hard I tried.  I tried for several hours to fall asleep and eventually started coughing up so blood.  I was extremely nervous because it seemed like if I fell asleep then I would never wake up - at least not in the same manner.  While that is an exciting thought, it is also very troubling.  I don't want to leave my family behind.  I'm still watching the news going on in Israel and (selfishly) hoping that things will escalate so that the Lord will return to take us home.

Sunday, July 16 - I felt pretty good through the day, unfortunately, my numbers have been getting worse.  The Hydrea medication was supposed to lower my white blood cell count but they keep climbing.  I was transferred to the intensive care unit tonight to begin the chemotherapy treatment.  My first dose was not too bad - at least not yet.  I had a pretty good case of the shivers around 2:00 AM because I was running a fever.  Overall, the chemo did a good job at getting my numbers where they need to be.

Saturday, July 15 - I finally got a little bit of sleep this morning.  I've had trouble getting comfortable in these beds made for normal sized people :)  Since noon today I have felt better than any other time over the past few days.  Unfortunately, it seems like I am getting nowhere.  As mentioned before, my white blood cell count needs to be under 50 (all figures are in thousands).  It has gone up a little bit (from 50.7 to 53).  Once this is under 50 then we can begin the chemo treatment.  Please continue to pray that the Lord will allow me to begin treatment as soon as possible.  Thanks again for all of your prayers and encouraging comments.  I am confident that God will honor them and that I'll be out of here soon (within a month).

Friday, July 14 - It's amazing how fast your world can change.  Three days ago I was busy preparing to teach classes next month and now I am in a battle for my life.  I am feeling quite confident that God will get me through this but I know it will be a long fight.  I have been having some pretty bad pain with my esophagus today as a result of the pills that I have to take.  They gave me some prilosec about 90 minutes ago and that seems to have helped.

I had an EKG performed earlier today and everything looked fine.  So I'm happy that my heart is in good shape.  Also, my platelet count has come way up (from 12 to 50).  My white blood cell count has come down (from 67 to 50.7) but it's not down far enough to begin full treatment.  I will probably start receiving ATRA treatments tomorrow.  This is a type of vitamin A treatment that will help prepare me for the chemotherapy.  This has been highly successful in treating M3 leukemia.  We remain optimistic because we know that God is in control. 

I want to thank everyone for your ongoing prayer support.  Please continue to lift me and my family up before the Lord.  I will try to keep everyone posted on my progress.  God bless!

Thursday, July 13 - There was a slight change in plans regarding the hospital that I will be at for the next month.  I was admitted into St. Mary's Hospital in Green Bay.  We were pretty nervous throughout the morning because the diagnosis was still up in the air.  I knew that I had leukemia but we weren't sure if it was the M3 variety or not.  Around 3:00 PM we received the news that it was M3 leukemia.  Since this is the most curable type we were very relieved. 

My doctor wants to start the chemotherapy as soon as possible.  Unfortunately, my white blood cell count is too high and platelet count is too low.  I have been receiving plasma, cryoprecipitates, and platelets through an IV to help my blood clotting capability.  Since my platelet count is so low I am at risk of internal bleeding just sitting here.  That is probably the main problem at this time.  The doctor believes my numbers will be much better tomorrow and as a result, we should be able to proceed with the chemotherapy treatment.

Wednesday, July 12 - I was just diagnosed with acute leukemia.  The doctor was pretty confident that it is M3 leukemia.  This is the most curable type of leukemia.  Lord willing, I will be spending the next 3 - 6 weeks at Bellin Hospital in Green Bay, WI (I will be checking in there in a few hours).  I will probably begin chemotherapy treatment this weekend and will be on it for seven days.  If my body responds well to it then I have a great chance to make a full recovery. 

I had been feeling very tired lately and just thought that I was dehydrated.  Needless to say, the leukemia diagnosis was quite a shock to me and my family.  I'm in pretty good spirits right now and am confident that I will be just fine.  God is in control!  Thank you for your prayers.